Monday, November 21, 2011

Big Red Dots

Oh my goodness...the stress of having 3 kids, a house and a full time job is rearing its ugly head! In the form of big red dots on my face. Every other day appears a new one. I am 33 and not 16 right?!

Charlie and Logan are both teething. They both have coughs and runny noses. Neither one of them are sleeping through the night. Dominic is also not sleeping well at all either. He is staying up late and being a bear to deal with in the mornings. It is all exhausting. I feel like I have a newborn all over again. Only without the yummy squishy baby to hold.

Dominic is trying. Having a pre-teen is not fun. I am not looking forward to him becoming a teen at all. Between the emotional outbursts, attitude, changes in all the things and the fact that my "baby" is no longer here. It. Is. Killing. Me. Emotionally, physically and mentally.  I know it will all work out. He will be come a teen and all the changes will be done. He will be back to a non-emotional roller coaster. Life moves on. But the roller coaster is bumpy. Oy.

I currently have 8 loads of clean laundry to put away. Every single night I tell myself that I will have time to do it between dinner and baths. And every single night my plan goes down the drain. Kids are crying.. Kids are whining. Kids are needing all the things.

Then it is time to put the kids to bed. And this process has been taking forever. Stories, back rubs, cuddles, kisses and hugs. Love all those things. However, when they are mixed with screaming crying toddler tantrums...not so much..

Work is stressful. It always is. Deadlines. Production. This is not causing me any more issues than normal. But when you are not sleeping much at night then mistakes happen more. Sorry to all my coworkers who catch those mistakes!

I can keep up with cleaning, cooking and the kids. Gary is a great husband and helps. We work as a team to tackle all that is needed. Kids, laundry, cleaning, errands. But my house seems to always be a mess. We get it looking awesome and 5 seconds later, BAM, stuff is everywhere. Clean up the stuff, lather rinse and repeat. This drives me up a wall. Oh to be back at the days of only needing to clean the house once a week!

Christmas is right around the corner. I am feeling the pressure...even though I am almost done. Did I get enough? Will the kids be surprised and excited that morning?  What am I going to get my husband? I hope it is not a mistake to get a real tree this year. All these run through my mind. All of the time.

I need an outlet. But currently am too tired to follow through with one. I need my kids to not be sick. To sleep through the night. Then I can have some "me" time and let loose. Then the angels will sing and sun will shine. I will be back. All will be right with the world. And no more red dots will bust out.

9 comments:

  1. Im sorry mama! I hope the kids give you a little break soon. I have 2, I can't imagine how trying 3 is. Hugs!!

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  2. Oh my gosh all that about your pre-teen sounds ab.so.lute.ly. aweful! I don't know how I'm going to deal with those years. I'm sorry work is stressful on top of it. *Hugs*

    Jamie
    For Love of Cupcakes

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  3. It's the WORST when kids are sick and cranky. I feel for you! My two were sick all last month, but three is even more work! I get the big red dots too.. hate em. I did find some Clean & Clear zit cream (in a silver tube) that helps a lot. It dries them up overnight so they're small enough in the morning to be properly concealed with concealer rather than look like flesh toned volcanoes. Hang in there Momma! This too shall pass. : )

    Karen
    www.nakedmommydiaries.com

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  4. Tracy, I loved this post!! It is so honest and real and true for many of us so you are not alone there! When those angels are done singing at your place, send them down under lol. I hear you on the house never being the way you want it to be, I hear you on the pre-teen thing, it's no wonder people drink!! I don't, but I should lol.
    You hang in there, things will improve xo

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  5. Thank you all for the support. I know it will get better! Once I get my groove back, I will be sure to send the singing angels along :)

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  6. Hang in there Tracy! Hopefully the break from work over the Thankgiving holiday will give you some time to catch up and rest (with the exception of Black Friday). You are a great momma!!

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  7. I gave you an award! It's in today's post.

    Jamie
    For Love of Cupcakes

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  8. I hope they start sleeping through soon.
    I swear, the house cleaning is never ending. It looks great, then BAM! Messy all over again. It drives me nuts, too, but not much I can do. I tell myself that one day I'll miss the mess.
    Big hugs! I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving break!

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  9. Cleaning the house while the kids are still growing is like shoveling the walk while it's still snowing. :) I hope you have a fun and relaxing Thanksgiving!

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