Oh my goodness...the stress of having 3 kids, a house and a full time job is rearing its ugly head! In the form of big red dots on my face. Every other day appears a new one. I am 33 and not 16 right?!
Charlie and Logan are both teething. They both have coughs and runny noses. Neither one of them are sleeping through the night. Dominic is also not sleeping well at all either. He is staying up late and being a bear to deal with in the mornings. It is all exhausting. I feel like I have a newborn all over again. Only without the yummy squishy baby to hold.
Dominic is trying. Having a pre-teen is not fun. I am not looking forward to him becoming a teen at all. Between the emotional outbursts, attitude, changes in all the things and the fact that my "baby" is no longer here. It. Is. Killing. Me. Emotionally, physically and mentally. I know it will all work out. He will be come a teen and all the changes will be done. He will be back to a non-emotional roller coaster. Life moves on. But the roller coaster is bumpy. Oy.
I currently have 8 loads of clean laundry to put away. Every single night I tell myself that I will have time to do it between dinner and baths. And every single night my plan goes down the drain. Kids are crying.. Kids are whining. Kids are needing all the things.
Then it is time to put the kids to bed. And this process has been taking forever. Stories, back rubs, cuddles, kisses and hugs. Love all those things. However, when they are mixed with screaming crying toddler tantrums...not so much..
Work is stressful. It always is. Deadlines. Production. This is not causing me any more issues than normal. But when you are not sleeping much at night then mistakes happen more. Sorry to all my coworkers who catch those mistakes!
I can keep up with cleaning, cooking and the kids. Gary is a great husband and helps. We work as a team to tackle all that is needed. Kids, laundry, cleaning, errands. But my house seems to always be a mess. We get it looking awesome and 5 seconds later, BAM, stuff is everywhere. Clean up the stuff, lather rinse and repeat. This drives me up a wall. Oh to be back at the days of only needing to clean the house once a week!
Christmas is right around the corner. I am feeling the pressure...even though I am almost done. Did I get enough? Will the kids be surprised and excited that morning? What am I going to get my husband? I hope it is not a mistake to get a real tree this year. All these run through my mind. All of the time.
I need an outlet. But currently am too tired to follow through with one. I need my kids to not be sick. To sleep through the night. Then I can have some "me" time and let loose. Then the angels will sing and sun will shine. I will be back. All will be right with the world. And no more red dots will bust out.